Monday Mornings

 

“So. Monday. We meet again. We will never be friends—but maybe we can move past our mutual enmity toward a more-positive partnership.”

When the light streaks through the windows and crosses over your face you groan, your muscles protest and you throw an arm over your eyes. Praying for a few more moments of peace you receive nothing but disappointment as the alarm begins to ring next to your ear. 

Monday. Work. Reality. 

The weekend is like a tantalising dream of what life could be like without work or weekdays. Relaxation, chilling with friends or going out and exploring the world around you. When you wake up on a Monday morning though, the past couple of days is nothing more than a distant memory and already you have a ‘weekday face’. 

A weekday face; your lips can’t curl up into a smile as it’s far too early and the only other people who are up are the crazy joggers, cyclists or people who have no job and have’t discovered their beds yet, still in the clothes they wore to latest club last night (you secretly envy these party people). You have creases on your forehead where you have to squint at everything as those extra hours of sleep don’t exist anymore, not until Saturday, which is so far away….

Brushing your teeth you try, and fail, to keep all the toothpaste in your mouth, not noticing or caring when that stray blob falls onto your shirt. You stumble around as though you’ve lost all ability to walk normally, at least until your body has decided it is in fact awake and not still lying beneath those comfortable, warm covers that are still calling to you. This always leads to a few inevitable questions: 

In your head you ask yourself can ‘I have another ten minutes in bed?’, ‘Can I get away with phoning in sick today?’ Before deciding you need the money…and you’ve already feigned illness two monday’s ago. You move onto the next step, the juice to put in your engine. 

Fuel: Pouring a cup of coffee (the only liquid that allows you to keep moving, to put one sluggish foot in front of the other) you stare at the steam as it whirls upwards in a playful dance. Your eyes drooping back into slumber you quickly take a gulp as the sun begins to rise beyond the kitchen window. Burning your tongue in your haste, cursing as you move forwards with a routine that has been sound for years. 

Clumsily putting shoes on your feet (usually on the wrong ones to begin to with), you glance at the clock and realise that your running late and those extra few minutes with the alarm on snooze were not the best idea. You say I won’t do that next time (but you will). 

Heading out the door into the crisp morning air you’re already counting down the days till the weekend as your breath curls in front of your, creating small clouds of mist. 

Robin Williams

Words cannot describe the loss that as a world we have begun to feel in the past two days. Our lives were touched, and as a whole, as a population we have begun to grieve for this talented man who was tormented by inner demons that not even those closest to him could have known the extent of his horror. 

With the death of Robin Williams, both social media and press offices have suddenly found themselves in an abundance of news. Various groups have differing thoughts on the late actors suspected suicide. 

Robin Williams was a man I grew up with, I watched his movies and laughed at his jokes. From a more serious role in Good Will Hunting to Mrs. Doubtfire, Williams’ roles illustrated his talent as a comedian and actor. A genuine individual with a heart of gold, he had troubled thoughts and a conscience that would not allow him to be rid of his inner demons. 

Struggling with Mental Illness isn’t easy, its hard, extremely hard. When you become your own enemy you lose the person you can trust the most; yourself. Having no one to turn to life becomes very lonely, when you’re lonely you are left to ponder the dark thoughts that have already created this situation. For someone to decide it is time to end their life is not a selfish act. It is a brave one. Knowing that you are going to be leaving behind a daughter, family and friends, creates a situation that takes a lot of serious thought. For any single person, journalist or not to criticise a mans choice is diabolical, hurtful and cruel. They do not know what has gone on in a persons mind nor what has driven them to such a cataclysmic end. 

Judgement is something we tend to do as human beings, judge ourselves and each other. In a time when a serious act is publicised across the world everyone shares a multitude of opinions. For someone to say that what Robin Williams did was selfish is cruel and that person should never be allowed to exercise their right to freedom of speech, well not for the general public to read within a newspaper anyway. We can think what we want but as I have previously said, it takes a brave man to put out the flame of their life. 

Robin Williams’ death has highlighted the risks of mental illness and has already allowed many campaigners to raise their point of needing more help for those who suffer with the disease. It is a disease after all, you battle with mental illness for the rest of your life after you’ve been diagnosed. What most people don’t even realise is that 1 in 4 people will experience some kind of mental illness within a year and mixed anxiety and depression are the leading diagnosis. In the wake of this great mans death many are already seeking help for their issues and are trying to put themselves on a path that he felt he had strayed too far from.

As he said himself “You are only given a little spark of madness, never lose it.” Interpret this as you may chose however, I see it as an innovative piece of information where he prays that we can all see the child within ourselves, that we can laugh and smile at the smallest of things. 

Jimmy Fallon called him the “Muhammid Ali of comedy” and this is a title that is deserving. While Robin Williams made the world smile unfortunately he used all of his happiness up on others.

I hope he has found the peace he could not find within this life. I will watch his films and continue to remember the man that had a brilliant personality that was vibrant and transcended through the television screen.

Rest In Peace Robin Williams, I sincerely hope you have found happiness and you can smile as you have made the world smile.

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